Yesterday a friend of mine wrote about peace on her fb status, then I got to start thinking about peace.

Each and every part of our lives have a different sense of peace and beauty. But unfortunately even though I this as well, I would be overlooking stuff and can not think less of the next phase. Therefore the current phase would be kind of less important to me. So the current peace and harmony will be overlooked and will be overshadowed by the failure of reconstruction and wrong predictions of the uncertain future.

Edit: 14.05.2012
Had a lot of writing planned. But I don't feel like doing that now.

Had a nice evening with my person. saying whatever you want can be a good thing if you don't hurt the other person, maybe :)

We come in terms with life. We all do.

Some label life as a bitch, game, joke, journey, gamble, risk...........and so on.

You can term life just the way you want to. You can say how you perceive it now and then and whenever you want.

Sad part is other than God nobody will ever be giving us the answer to life. Many knowledgeable, wise & learned people will enlighten us with thoughts and perceptions on life but unfortunately nobody will be able to give us the heads up on what life is.

We muslims have our own way of defining life. I won't be getting into that. Not only because I myself need to know more about it but also for the fact that my blog is free of any sort of bindings. Its all free flow of thoughts and power of mind.

I am a complex person. For me, Life can be super serious maze at times and at some mornings I feel good for no reason when I feel that life is super easy and nothing to be scared of.

There are certain things for which I have to count Allah's blessings- infact it should be for all of it. I am super blessed Alhumdulillah when it comes to having a super mom. She is my oxygen cylinder which is moving my life forward. Not because she is my mom but because of whatever I have been given, taught, been opened up to- my mom has opened a whole new door for me which have not been discovered by a lot of people. I have an awesome sister, I am not going to talk about it. You can have some idea if you go through this  I have been blessed with lovely friends. Lately I have come across someone whom I refer to as my soul-sister. This is not some cliched word but it so is not! I think that I have not come across someone like ever with whom I can be completely myself! You know who you are and I am happy to have you in my life :)

Last but not the least I have one special among all the awesome lots of things Allah has given me to be thankful for. I will talk about it later. :)

Edit # 1
Last night was random. Power failure, had some work to do, had a chat with a close friend over skype- couldn't write it properly. Today is another off day and I have no idea how to spend it. I have to go to the shop to get my irons checked. Now electricity is gone again and my lappy battery is about to die. Yet I will be updating since I had some ncie ideas this morning.

Last night I was talking about risk. Someone told me that he perceives it as a negative word whereas I being a pessimist (yeah mostly!) I said that I feel risk is equal to taking a chance or it is something like an opportunity. I know it depends on what people think about it but how do YOU see it makes it what it is. Then again that is how life is- it is how you see it.

Day by day I have started to have a  feeling that we are all hostages of our own thoughts. "how you see it", "how you wanna do it", "my way or the high way", "your life, color it", "its you who creates the destiny" I mean damn! Where is the true picture? What is the truth? I gotta run now. brb. battery dead

"There is a sense of exhilaration that comes from facing head-on the hard truths and saying, 'We will never give up. We will never capitulate. It might take a long time, but we will find a way to prevail."

American business guru Jim Collins was indeed right. I think I am going through this phase now and then these days.

I have never been good with changes. But changes have been my only friend for the last 2 years straight on. I changed my outlook of life, my confidence, my love, trust, taste in things, taste in food, way of thinking- I mean yes. we ALL change. WE ALL DO! But some were less important, some happened just with the normal flow of time.

I don't hate sari much.

I am confident about certain skills of mine.

I got to learn that there is no point in being honest- lovable- giving your best to people. If things don't go your way- they will only back stab you.

I have learnt that being around confused people gets you to more of a super confused state unless you are the dominant one.

I have also learnt, who wants to stick with you will be there no matter what (depending on what Allah wants- which is more or less applicable everywhere)

being determined matters big time. Now the question is that whether how much I should try. Should I keep the issues of respect, outcome, timing, future while deciding on that OR just play plain dumb "determined" role and get into action?

Will continue tomorrow :) gotta run