How often does people feel that being happy about something you want becomes a crime? How often does one feel that no matter how much people tend to soothe you the load of the world is still on your shoulders? How can you ignore the fact that no matter what at the end of the day the shit you get into always keeps the odour on your own freaking body and we all so hopelessly left alone to deal with it?

A life lived by other people's term and beliefs only makes you a hostage to themselves and practically to yourself. You can not help but feel suffocated and so panicked! It is an awful panicky situation.

I need to know how much are we driven by the subconscious minds.......I think I can not figure it out these days. I am encountering parts of me not present to be in a normal manner. It is like I do not know myself.......it is like I have hidden myself away, kept it in a creepy little dark place, not letting the true voice speaks........

I am afraid that if it comes out in to the light, people might get hurt.

Excuses! Again from my side to keep my little demon asleep the way it is! Sucker! I hate myself :(

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It has been hectic- today! I put in the card inside the envelopes and Hell yeah it was tiring. The first thing I heard since I got up this morning form my mom that "God! no work is being done! Nothing is going forward!" 

Things have been pretty harsh. Awful stuff which was never supposed to happen is happening. 

I think it has been a bit stressful but I am positive. 

Life has to go on and being positive is all that matters. You can not be sad and cry a river  for no good reason :) This is so not worth it.

I will write about it later. I have been reading "One day" again and it has been coming along pretty well. This is awesome. It is one lovely book. I need to focus on it :) 

I am frustrated at this moment! What I am working for isn't working out well. I need to try better!